Ok, so this morning...I signed up for weight watchers meeting w/etools. I'm diggin the etools-makes tracking easier. I jotted down what and how much I ate and tonight entered it ALL. Even the wine. It's cool though, with the help of etools I can tweak what I eat OUT so that I can enjoy dinner with the hubs and lose weight without starving him. win win both of us.
I have realized that I have taken this whole job thing just way way too personally. I felt like I'd let him down. I had encouraged him to try for something knowing that he might not obtain his desired end. But the truth is; he may not have gotten the job even if I hadn't applied. I also realized today that it's not me he's mad at. It's the hiring system (civilian and private sector) that has got him seeing red, feeling disappointed, and disheartened. I'm sure there are many others who have felt this pain considering how far in the toliet our job market is.
But it's not the end of the world. I know things will work out great. It just takes time. And he and I got nothing but time. He and I will continue to help and support each other in our endeavors.