Monday, October 24, 2011

My how time flies when your...

Having fun?

Ok so I'm not having "fun fun" but I'm not bored either! I've been extraordinarily busy lately and busy is good. Except, as you know, when it comes to eating. Or exercising. Or taking care of your own needs. But you knew that already right?

And you all know what happens when you don't eat right, exercise, or take time for yourself. Right? We'll if you don't let me tell you. You gain weight, get flabby, and lack proper sleep for starters. All bad; all confidence crushers. Then you find yourself falling into old habits and repeat.

Well I'm happy to say that I've NOT gained weight. I have gotten a lil flabbier but at least I've stayed the same weight. And as for sleep it really hasn't been THAT bad but most days I could hit the snooze a few more times.

Anyhow, the point of my post is that I sometimes have poor time management skills.  If I could implement/follow the advice of "professional organizers/time management specialists" ALL of the time rather than just PART of the time I would have more time for myself. And they say time for ones self (sp?) is essential to a balanced life.  And my biggest desire in life, I've recently realized, is that I want a balanced life.  I mean seriously, wouldn't that be like, PERFECT! Yes, yes it would. sign  me up!

Alright, so I'm going to be busy busy until at least Sunday but I will pencil in some time for blogging between now and then because blogging is fun, keeps me accountable, and gives me someone to talk to. I feel a sense of comraderie with the blogging community that I don't feel elsewhere. Oh, ding subject change, I told my step mom that we wouldn't be home for Thanksgiving and that I probably wouldn't be up until April time. She didn't sound surprised but she did sound disappointed. I'm sorry for that but my well being first, all other second. I can no longer handle being in negative situations that I don't have to be in. So, if any of you all want to come over for Thanksgiving dinner, I'll be serving it in the afternoon...probably about 4.

ttyl

Sunday, October 16, 2011

It’s Friday which also means it’s BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy – on Sunday!!

Ok...I KNOW this is late but I just LOVE the questions this week! Thanks Laura from Beer, Dogs, and Getting Healthier for posting!

Five little questions you can copy and paste and answer in your own blog to get to know your fellow bloggers better and to give your blog brain a break!

1. What’s your most favorite noise and your least favorite noise?
Ok, I have two most favorite noises. One is light "weather" (like rain falling and hitting the window or gusts of wind) in the wee early morning hours on a Saturday (cuz I can stay home most Saturdays). The other is my lil snuggle bunny Fredbird coming and snuggling up next to me, finding his "perfect spot" and letting out that "sigh". The noises make me snuggle further down under my blanket and count my lucky stars for being so blessed!

As for least favorites, I have many. I have pretty sensitive ears and at certain times of the month every noise seems "intensified". People snapping/popping gum actually hurts my ears. Another least favorite noise is certain people talking. Whining makes me ill!

2. If you were a character in the movie Grease – who would you be?
Betty "Rizzo". The dark hair tough acting girl. She can be taken several ways and may have been misunderstood. Outwardly she acted tough and confident but on the inside (IMO) she wanted the same things others wanted: love, understanding, acceptance.

3. What was the name of your best friend in elementary school? Are you still friends?

Christie and yes we are still friends. We don't see each other much or talk as often as we might like BUT we do know where the other is when we need each other most desperately.

4. Who is your current celebrity crush?
Still Dwayne "the Rock" Johnson...shhhhh..don't say a word; just let me just look at you! :O)


5. Repeat question: How was your week in real life and in blog land?
My week has been pretty hectic. I've had some volunteer things, heavy work schedule, and tons of outside work to get done before the snow. Bloggy land has slightly suffered. I've been able to read some blogs but not respond to anyone. And I just got my first post done in like over a week and a half (this will be my second).

Gone Crazy-BBL

Hello there.

It's been a bit hectic around here and I'm totally ok with most of it.  We got a new boss a month or so back and I'm not diggin him. BUT if I were/am to stay with the organization I've got 20 yrs to his 2 before it's all over so I might as well just suck it up. I openly admit that this will be a great learning "tool" (sorry my brain froze and I forgot what word I really was going to use). I will also openly admit that this guy is all about goals (one sided for him of course-ie his goals only included what is good for him only not what is good for the organization and for him). Anyhow, working with him gets me thinking on what I'd like to do, where do I go from here (professionally) to get where I want to be (professionally and personally).  I think I heard this thought on the Daily Boost and the thought is "there really is no difference between professional and personal." And in the end I want it all to be as harmonious as possible.

OK...thinking out loud: WHAT IS IT THAT I WANT PROFESSIONALLY?

  1. An occupation that doesn't leave me stuck in one location (#nomorecubicle)
  2. An occupation that allows me to be in a "far away location" but still get work done (#telecommute)
  3. An occupation that allows for decent pay (at the very least) and benefits (#notlookingtoberichbut)
  4. An occupation that allows me to be excited about what I am sharing (#cantwealljustbehappyaboutsomething)
Now, these aren't my only wants...just the "main ones" that I can think of off the top of my head. And please don't get me wrong-I LOVE MY CURRENT JOB. But my current job doesn't allow for much movement and 20 years from now when I am to "retire" I don't want to be known as the "Bitch kept the office running ultra smoothly AND had time to feed us."

And now, thinking out loud: WHAT ARE MY OPTIONS!?

1. A writer of some sorts
2. An online teacher (although I would also be open to teaching in a classroom
3. Outside Sales
4. ??
5.  ??

And then, thinking out loud: WHAT IS KEEPING ME FROM EXPLORING MY OPTIONS?

1. While I'm a smart cookie, I am not the smartest bulb in the batch. If I were to explore the teaching option I would totally need to work on my grammar/grammer? (sentence structure, when to use verbs etc).
2. While my confidence in myself is growing, I still have many days where I feel like the biggest failure to walk the earth. OK, maybe not the biggest failure BUT you know what I mean (I think).
3. Me. I keep myself from exploring options because for whatever reason I just don't believe in myself.

Either that or I just enjoy the "security" that my job has to offer that I don't want to walk away yet. But nothing is "secure" and shit happens. I'd like to find "something" that I could do "part time" that would not only supplement my income (thus paying off the big bills sooner) but that would give me a taste of what is available.

By the way...I'm not ignoring any of the blogs on my "worth following" list.  I have been able to get on here and read them (and I'm also happy to see that I am not the only one crunched for time these days) but not been able to post a response as much as I'd like. 

TTYL

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Thoughtful Thursday

Isn't it funny when you have a light bulb moment and you're like "well duh--I saw that coming but chose to look the other way!"

Isn't it funny when you realize that the boat you're sailing in, the one you are busy rowing towards the pretty shore, stops moving and starts sinking. It's filled with water because you chose to look the other way when you first noticed a hole develop.

Isn't it funny how when you let yourself feel comfortable with the progress you've made you realize that you've become TOO comfortable and that your progress is fading.

No, it isn't funny at all is it. It's a bit disheartening and you feel as if it's all for naught. But it ISN"T for naught, it's for something. IT'S FOR YOU!!! Just because you have a bad day or you have a bad week, or maybe you've had a bad month-you're journey is not for naught. IT'S FOR YOU. NO ONE ELSE. GET THAT THROUGH YOUR THICK FRICKIN NOGGIN. Period. end of that discussion.

So what do you do to get out of this FUNK. Do you think about it? Do you go to the store and buy supplies? Do you pull your pen and paper out and start a list? Do you get your list done and say "ah yes this will work; we start tomorrow!" ***NEWS FLASH*** There is NO TOMORROW. NO FRICKIN TOMORROW!!! And why wait when you CAN start today. March your rear end in to that batheroom, look at yourself in the mirror, raise your hand, point your finger to the mirror and shout (yes shout) MY CHANGE STARTS TODAY. RIGHT THIS MINUTE. I DESERVE THE BEST! FORGET ABOUT EVERYTHING YOU THINK IS WRONG AND FOCUS ON WHAT'S RIGHT WITH YOU! 

It's not funny anymore and truthfully it never was. The sharades are over, the gig is up. One step in front of the other, no matter how small, will get you to your destination. The journey to your destination may not be short but that's ok...the longer the journey the more fun you'll have. All the things you'll learn about yourself; all the things you'll learn about others...such a fun and wonderful journey if you'll only STOP LOOKING THE OTHER WAY!!!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Wednesdays Wonder for this week...

why is it that "wonders never cease to amaze" us? #idontgetit

I wonder who broke my coffee cup and didn't fess up? #ruderuderude

I wonder what my purpose is...daily #lifedoeshavepurposeright?

I wonder why many of us ask questions that don't have answers. #confused

I wonder why men are wired so much differently than women. #hesfromanotherplanet