Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Easy to side track

I’ve been meaning to post for a few days but got side tracked, which isn’t surprising these days! Even though my brain never stops, always thinking about something, this often allows for easy side tracking!

I’ve been pretty lazy these days (days since the ½ marathon) with exercising...doing the bare minimum really. I’d say I feel bad for this but don’t (because at least I've been walking). During this break from preparing for my 1st 1/2 marathon, I’ve been focusing on my mindset and gathering the proper tools to move from walking to running. I do know I’m holding back (on running) but I’m not really sure why (although my attempt at running this afternoon tells my bad self why-my lungs burn!!). I REALLY want to do it (running). And I can do it (at a very slow pace). I want to be like Forrest in Forrest Gump. I want to run to clear my mind because let me tell you; the brain never stops issues is very tiring and It would really be nice if it would just SHUT UP now and then!!!

What’s on my brain you ask??? Everything and anything. Sometimes it’s doing a continuous to-do list; sometimes it’s “what can I do to be a better person”; sometimes it’s continuous reassurance that I AM ok, I AM doing fine, and it's all 'them'; sometimes though, there is just a lot of static. I really hate static days. “you’re too fat” “please, no one really cares what you think, how you feel blah blah blah "they’d never miss you if you left.” These static days really affect how and what I do in regards to eating and exercise (big surprise right!!) as well as how I interact with others (via email, phone, or in person).

To combat these static days I have turned to hypnosis/subliminal/meditational recordings right before bed. One of the recordings was designed to encourage peoples subconcious mind to love exerising, to encourage healthier eating, and tell listeners that yes, they CAN do it. The other recording is basically one big "ata girl"; you can do anything you put your mind to do, the only thing stopping you is you, and YOU CONTROL YOUR FEELINGS. Whether they work for everyone or not I don't know but I do know that they make me feel better. I sleep like a baby and wake up in a very nice mood!

Before I close this post I would like to provide a link to a really thought provoking article about weight loss and the changes one expects from losing weight. I can relate to this article because years ago I would lose weight (or attempt to lose weight) in hopes of solving "issues" in my life (lack of boyfriend, lack of single life, lack of....) that I felt would be solved if I would "just lose the extra weight". What's different about this time around is that it isn't all aobut losing weight (losing weight is really just a bonus point of my journey); it's about changing my brain so that I can live a happier, healthier, more active life. I want my body to go as fast and as long as my brain goes!!!

Why are you trying to change your life?



  1. Maybe you need a new goal to work towards? That always helps me.
    Everyone starts running at a slow pace, OK everyone who doesn't start in like high school, LOL. Slow is fabulous!

  2. LOL..funny you should say that Kat (great minds think alike I guess)...but I have been contemplating things I'd like to get done. One of my goals is to do 2 of the 1/2 marathons a year and each time improve my pace. I'd also like to do a 1/2 marathon in each state. My ultimate pace I am aiming for is 12 min miles (currently at 16 min). I also have some monetary goals I am aiming for...other than that I really don't know what other goals to set. I will admit that the more I focus on my goals the less brain static but....can't I just turn it off for a bit??!