Ok...had a GREAT post started (in my head) yesterday. Included a few choice words (some of which were "obscene"). But I vaguely remember it. Should have written it down. Damn it's a bitch gettin old(er)!
I do know that I am not crazy nor am I going crazy. It's been documented by a real doctor, which of course I find amusing. But at least I now have an idea of what the hell is going on with my body and that's always nice. Which reminds me that if any of you are pre-menopausal please me-I gots me some questions to ask. It's been a bit of a roller coaster, and I'm dealing well, but I could use some advice.
I ran (mostly walked) the Track n Treads 5k yesterday here in edwardsville. It was a great course (went through the woods) and I had the opportunity to meet up (and chat with for a second) with another blogger Kate. If you haven't visited her blog you should check her out. She's a great inspiration, funny, and not crazy either (although we teased that she was by doing a 28 hr race; the LBL?). Anyhow, two pals came along for the jaunt. None of us had a CLUE about the course and were overwhelmingly surprised by what we went through. About a mile of it was on sidewalks, the rest went through the woods. It was hilly, thin trail, and a challenge. We are used to road 5ks. For me, Once I was able to shut my brain off, I was reminded of years past and long forgotten. I was able to remember how much fun I had running the streets, out to the creek not far from home. It's safe to say that we all fared well and are willing to do it again. My one friend even managed to come in 2nd for his age group.
The beginning of the run is always hard for me. I am MUCH slower than my friends. They can do their first mile in 7 mins; it takes me 10ish. I'm still amazed that I can do a mile in 10 mins. Anyhow, I'm much slower and cannot yet continue to run an entire 5k. By a 1/4 to 1/2 mile in I'm encouraging my friends to "go ahead" because I just CANNOT keep their pace. I can understand not being able to keep up with D (he's taller and has a bigger stride) but H is my height!! I feel like such a loser. My legs lately often feel like I've got cinder blocks as thighs. A mile or so into Saturdays race I had managed to convince myself that I didn't need to be doing anymore races, that obviously my head isn't in it because I was not getting any better. Races aren't for walkers; they're for competitors. I'm not a competitor; I just want to finish and to do a lil better than the last race. I mentioned this to H over lunch. she said I was being silly. She might be right. I don't know. I honestly don't know. I love participating in 5k's and half marathons but those things are for runners (or so I've heard) and I haven't been able to get my head on right so that I can continue to run (rather than run/walk). I keep finding barriers. Some of which are mind made....