Many years ago I had an epiphany...my family was not and would NEVER be like Leave it to Beaver. My father was always angry, mom always passive (and step mom too), brother always trying to win my fathers love (but irritating my father instead) and me wishing I could just blend into the scenery. So much DRAMA! Such an unhealthy environment at times. Still can be when I let it. But I choose to keep my distance so that I can work on being a healthy well balanced individual. Some days are better than others. The perfect day eludes me but that's ok; I'm not givin up.
Recently though, I had another epiphany. My life is NOT a made for Hollywood story where I battle a demon (or two) (and win against them of course!), where I save someone else along the way (becoming a hero), and go on to live the perfect life. With a hunky hot stud who loves me for me (and all my quirkiness) and has tons of money to spend. No matter how hard I've tried, I just can't obtain perfect. There is always going to be "something" that causes discomfort in in my life. So why have I been "sweatin" it?