Sunday, August 15, 2010

Lost: Motivation; Reward if found

I've lost my mojo. I don't know where it is. If you see it, send it back to me please. I'll reimburse you for your troubles. Occasionally I've found it myself, sitting on the couch or napping in the bedroom, but it runs screaming from the room because it has no desire to do anything productive. AT ALL. And I'm concerned. There are 49 days until my next half marathon. And I am not really prepared. Ok, I'm not prepared at all. The most I've walked in recent weeks is 10 miles but my average is 4miles. And that's not even consistant; as in 2 days a week is all I've been walking. And I am close to admitting that I may never be a runner (because of motivational issues), that I may be destin to being a fast walker.

Occasionally I will come across an article/story about someone who has made changes in there life that has enabled them to shed pounds, adjust their outlook on life, and live a happy, more active life. These changes have strengthened their bond with the spouses/signficant others, as well as with themselves and their faith. When asked "How did you do it?" they claim "I just woke up one day and started doing it." Can someone please explain how this happens and how I can "wake up one day and just do it." Over the last 7 months I have given myself every tool possible (new work out shoes, new work out clothes, books, internet searchs on food, exercise, emotions-and I've had a treadmill for over a year) in order to make the life changes I seek and nothing seems to have fully stuck. Now, I'm not being a Debbie Downer-I just need help understanding how I can get myself to "wake up one day and just do it". I envy those who jog and get into "the zone". I want that zone.

I love being out in nature, observing my surroundings, smiling at the beauty of it all. I feel at peace when I'm strolling along...and peace is sometimes hard to come by. Lately, I have not been able to enjoy nature. The mold count has been through the roof, as has been the humidity. How do those of you with allergy issues handle being out in the mold? I can avoid some of the humidity/heat by walking late at night or dragging my arse out of bed early in the morning. But the allergins in the air, especially mold, give me headaches that sometimes lead to migranes. I could just suck it up and use the treadmill (sweet hubby bought an industrial type fan to help cool the rooms in our house) but I want to be outside.

6 comments:

  1. Why do you want to be a runner? (This is asked with a thoughtful and kind tone, not to be snide)

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  2. I'm not really sure....but I think it's cuz you can (don't laugh) get from point A to point B quicker. Just like biking...you can cover more ground.

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  3. good questions sorry I don't have any clever answers. smile

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  4. Me, too, I want to wake up one morning and just be doing it. What does the Sandman leave in that load?

    Very cute title, but not such a fun state to be in. I understand, as I'm floundering, too. Can't seem to get the traction that I need.

    I'm looking forward to fall; it's my favorite time of the year. Maybe my mojo will come back to me when the weather is cooler and the air is crisp. Let's rock the fall together, OK?

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  5. I think it's only when you look back that you can say that you just woke up one day and decided to change. When you are in the middle of it I think it's difficult and that you have to recommit every day (every hour if you need to). It's literally sheer willpower and force until you can get it to become a habit. If you can't force yourself maybe you need a partner?

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  6. Hey, I'm back!

    I just wanted to tell you that you don't know how much your "good at 52" comment meant to me today! I was heading to a job interview and I needed to hear something positive!!

    This job could be the one for me! I think I did really well on the interview, and I should know in a day or two if they're going to offer the job to me. Cross your fingers!

    Thanks for the lift at the exact moment that I needed it! I hope it was a "sign"!!

    C'mon, let's find our mojo...

    Here Moj, here Moj, here Mojie-boy!

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