Sad sad sad...

Tell me, how did I get to this point? At 213 pounds I'm losing a battle that I somehow forgot to fight. Somewhere, somehow I lost my fearlessness, lost my courage, lost who I was supposed to be. Did I ever know who I was supposed to be? I don't know. Sometimes I blame things on my mothers death 13 years ago but that isn't a fair assessment. I've always had issues with my weight and definitely with my self esteem. But I vow to change this. 2010 is the year I take my life back.