We Weeble and We Wobble but We're NOT Falling Down

I'm feeling a bit ill prepared for the half marathon next week. I've struggled with foot problems all summer and did not seek other avenues to strengthen my legs and lungs (like I should have). I have NO doubt I that I will be able to complete the half marathon; but I do doubt being able to complete it in a better time than my last half marathon (I completed the last half marathon in 2 hrs 55 mins).

I often struggle with confidence and control. One I can influence (confidence) one I can not (control). I just have to remember that I DO deserve happiness, I DO deserve the very best that life has to offer and that just because I can't control when or how it happens I can believe in myself (and what I'm doing) and know that it (happiness, good things, endless possibilities) will eventually happen.

No matter how much we weeble, how much we wobble, we are strong and won't fall down. But you know what, if we do fall down it isn't the end of the world. We'll just havce to pick ourselves up and resume the 'one foot in front of the other".

still kicking...

It's amazing how quickly life moves....you blink and it's a new day. which is a good thing...better than the alternative.

Nothing really new to report or chat about. I've been reading, working, walking, and working some more. My friend and I have started our woggin sundays again! I've done 6 1/2 miles each Sunday and each time my pace speeds up.

The weather is beautiful out and I love being outside during this time. I hope it's nice and chilly in 16 days...when it's time for me to wog the half marathon!

Just gotta have faith...

I'm very lucky. I'm in a wonderful place in my life. I no longer really "want" for anything these days.  I have the love of others; I have encouragement for the things I do or want to do; and while money doesnt' grow on the tree out back, there always seems to be "just enough" to get us by.  I'm also in good health (other than the usual aches and pains of aging and my bum foot) and able to do so much more than others I know. 

But some days I forget. Or just plain don't "feel lucky". Everyone has days like that. We're human and life happens. And on those days, when life just doesn't feel right, I say to myself "Just gotta have faith". I just gotta have faith that others will know to do the right thing. I just gotta have faith that he will feel better soon. I just gotta have faith that all will go smooth and work out as planned.

Bye Bye spare tired...

putting the big pants on...literally. Went to the goodwill store this weekend for more pants (bigger). It's amazing how quickly the weight has come back on. This time two years ago I was 218 lbs.  Today I am 196. All because I stopped holding myself accountable.

Had lunch with one of my besties (Sherrie). It was a GREAT visit and uplifting as hell.  We were talking how at our age (early/mid 40's) it's so hard to lose weight. We look at food and put on 5 lbs whereas our friend who is mid 30's loses it finger snap quick just by drinking one less beer at night. And we talked how the only thing that really helped, that really helped us focus, was Weight Watchers.

So I signed up for Weight Watchers. Again. And I'm going to use their tools. Again. And maybe this time I can REALLY make it a life style change. Not just a way to lose weight.